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I'm sweaty.
It's summer.
Why am I here?
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My phones missing.
Nothings on me.
I don't have anything better to do, I should leave.
This road goes on forever. I turned left when I left the forest.
I think that's the right way, I can't remember.
Here and there a car passes me, they don't try to slow down or even swerve a bit away.
I don't reqonize any of them; except for one.
It's Damian's truck, I think he wants to pick me up.
The hell are you doin' out here? Get in.
Why're you so far from home so early? Went for a run or something?
No.
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I see.
It's fine to have a falling out with a friend.
Just know that I won't stop being yours for some stupid reason.
Anyways, why all there way out here? Where'ya headed?
Nothing, just home.
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Sorry.
You should probably sleep on the way there, you don't look so good.
I suppose.
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Hello.
How life been anymore?
Fine.
Doesn't sound so fine.
I don't know. I just don't want to think about this okay?
So you want to leave it all behind?
No. I can't just run from home, or Damian.
Your father isn't the kindest person, and your mothers forced to do whatever he says. It's not like they'll try to look for you much.
I know. But. How do I know that I would be okay?
Sure, I can leave, I'm sure I can get far from a train.
But it wouldn't last long. I would need food, somewhere to stay. Everything that's happened to me would repeat itself but worse.
Maybe so. You could always leave another way.
No.
Stern on that choice aren't you?
I don't care if nobody would miss me. I care that Damian would blame himself again.
I haven't had much love in my life, I'm okay with being alone or forgotten, but I'm not okay with ruining other's lives.
So then what do you plan to do?
Keep walking I suppose. What else is there to do.
If I stopped on the road at the school, nothing would happen, I would have just let myself down.
If I kept walking, I would've gotten home, and nothing would've changed.
I can't sit on the negatives. I'll just forget all of this and keep moving.
That includes you.
What?
An internal voice is the reason why I overthink or worry too much.
So from now on, I'm no longer going to think or speak in my head.
I'll only think about work, or who I care about. I should never think about myself again.
Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see.
That you won't exist to me. Never crossing my mind again.
It's almost the end of summer, I'm 15, and in a field.
So, have you all made up?
Like I said, I don't have any issues with anyone!
You sure?... Alright. I'll buy it.
Come on, we settled our problems together.
I suppose so.
Good, I'm sorry that I was so busy for the past few weeks, I had some... work.
It's fine if you just didn't want to talk to us.
Would you rather be buried with no eyes or ears?
What?
Cause like, what if people said or did stupid stuff to make fun of you after you died.
No ears.
Eyes.
I guess ears?
Whaat? Eyes is better, cause you don't have to see dumb stuff your relatives do, not just about you.
I'm still going with ears, you think I wanna hear my relatives banging?
Okay hold on, does that mean we're constantly spying on relatives or people we know? What's the rule to this all.
No, just when they talk about you.
I would'nt want eyes too, I don't wanna know how ugly my kids are.
Oh, hm, not a bad point.
Yeah, now that you say that. Eyes would be a better option.
What, so you don't have to see your kids are mixed down the family tree?
Why do you think I'm racist?!
I just do.
Hah, this might be one of your hunches where you're wrong.
You never know.
I hate you guys.
You don't mean thaaat.
-_-
Do we wanna start to head back soon? Or atleast once the sun sets?
I've seen the sun a thousand times, I don't care really.
I also don't mind. But I am slightly leaning towards staying.
We can stay, the sun will look nice, and what's waiting for us at home anyways?
Just a bunch of shitty parents.
Exactly.
Mine are fine, I just don't like them.
You're the only one with good parents, and you hate them! I don't get it.
Nobody gets much about me.
Except my dick! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!
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Wasn't that funny? Fine.
My parents are okay. I don't want to be near them much.
I guess, they're just pretty stalker-y. Remember when we tried to go a mall and they messaged you like a hundred times?
Yeah.
I haven't met your parents yet Isaac, what're they like?
Well, they aren't awful. They're just super pissed off everytime they get home. So I usually gotta deal with temper tantrums and it's just annoying. That's why I don't wanna head home yet, cause they get home by 5:10 and its 4:47 now.
I see, mine are kinda the same, but my dad's just moreso. Weird. I don't know how to describe him.
I think just expecting too much? He hates me cause I don't care about my grades, and you said he gets mad if you do poor.
Probably that, but I know he just wants me to do well so that I can go to college, so I can't blame him too much. He's still really annoying though.
Suns pretty nice honestly.
Oh.
What?
I remember now that I have a huge summer assignment for honors math I never started.
WHAT?!
I can help you some with that, If you wanna leave now we can. I need to burn time before heading home anyways.
Yes please.
Goodbye Damian and...
Hana.
Hana, thank you.
No problem, if you want to do anything just ask the group chat I added you to.
Before we go, I did actually mean to ask about that name, what are your parent's names if they picked something so strange?
Oh, my mom is Angela, and my dad is Antonio, I changed my name to Hana not long ago.
Okay! I don't really understand, but it's not my business! We gotta get going now.
Surprised you didn't tell em.
Huh? I just didn't want to since he's too basic, I don't think he'd get it.
Eh, fair.
Also I know you probably like, don't want to talk about him.
But that Evan guy moved away, so you won't have to deal with him anymore.
Or atleast I think he just went to college.
Don't think I didn't let him get away scotch free though.
I...
You already look a bit pale.
I'll stop talking about him, sorry.
C'mon. let's go grab something to eat before it's late.
T- That'll be nice.
My head hurts, but far less, there's barely anything to ring.
Yeah, just give me a hotdog, nothin' else.
I'll just want a slice of pizza and this slushie.
Oh hey Hana. How're you two.
Fine, you don't got anything in the back this early right?
Nah...
Hold on, how do you know their name?
Huh? Oh, they stopped by a few weeks ago and helped sit at the desk while I was busy.
No I didn't.
This guys probably just fried out of his damn mind, let's just leave honestly.
Whaaat?? C'mon! I drove you to the park that one time, I gave you test answers, and free food! Don't act like you don't know me man!
I don't. I'm sorry.
I'm leaving, you should probably come along.
Do you really know James, on a personal level?
No, I just remember what you told me a while back.
Pft, I'm sure this guy just mixed you up with someone else.
No worries, I can drive to your place now, 'less you wanna stay out more.
I'm fine heading home now, thanks.
Alright.
You can't fully erase me, you know.
I guess trying to forget everything included some people you liked.
What about poor Marina?
You haven't spoken to her in weeks.
Do you even remember who that is?
Can you be quiet?
I'm trying to sleep here.
Yes, I know who Marina is. I can't recall specifics, but I can remember who she is, so leave me alone.
Fine.
I'll always be in the back of your mind though.
Because you sure do seem to forget alot.
Just like me.
Yeah, just like you.
What's with that tone? Did you miss me?
You're not really him, c'mon.
Ghosts can always come back to haunt people.
This is exactly why I dont think about much, it's just stupid! This is so stupid, and so are you!
God damn, harass Damian, he knew you better than I did, wouldn't it make more sense?!
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Whatever.
Like I said a couple weeks ago, I don't have to focus on my past anymore, it just causes me more problems.
I'm okay with not remembering anything, as long as I'm happy.