everyones deserving of love honestly

some people i find weird still should live happy

Evan got sick not long after the vacation, so I've been a bit bored lately.

Luckily I've made some plans to hangout in town with Damian, I'm glad. I've missed talking to the guy honestly.

So where'ya been?

Sorry, I got preoccupied with stuff when school ended, then last week I had to go on vacation.

Ain't even invite me?

You had straight C's and D's. I doubt your parents would've let you go, no matter how nice they are.

Tch, you don't know how leniant they really are.

Maybe, my bad.

Well it's not that serious anyways. So we can go to a movie, pelt Isaac's house with eggs, hike up that mountain before the sun sets, or just go buy beer and be bums.

Uhh... Eggs first, then hiking, no wait, what movies are playing right now?

Nothin' good.

Damn. Alright hiking then after egging Isaac's house.

It's not much of a walk, he lives in town. I've actually seen this house a few times! I walk by it to school, and I've even seen isaac leave it himself. I think I had small talk once or twice, but I was probably too tired to listen.

Don't forget It's day, once we throw, you gotta move.

We've already done this a few times, I know!

Like instructed, we throw them pretty well at his window, and near the last eggs-

What the hell? Why is that dork here?

Stop tha-

The Lance kid just took an egg to the face, now we really gotta get going.

HAHAHAH!!!

We uh, gotta go now.

Yeah yeah I know! You don't think I know my own rules?

ASSHOLES!

I'm pretty sure that's Isaac. You know how someones personality can be read off how they look? I have nothing to say for him. He doesn't dress in any style to stand out, he's got basic short hair, no glasses, and even just acts boringly. What do I say about this guy? They're so basic you could see them in a Macy's advertisement!

That was pretty sweet, so now you wanna go hike or drink?

Hmmm... I feel like we could get to the top of the mountain decently fast, then drink afterwards.

See that's why I like your thinking.

I'll have to text James though. Could I use your phone?

Uh- No hold on, just tell me his number.

...

Just give me that.

Wh- Hey!

Still talking to this guy? Really?

Whoo?

Evan. You're back to back texting, "Wow let me suuuckkk youur diiiickk"

I DID NOT TYPE THAT.

You suuree? Seems like it.

Give me my damn phone back.

Well hold on! Let me actually message James now.

Quit looking through my stuff!

I won't. You think I wanna see a picture of your ass?

What? Why the hell would I have that, none the less on my phone?

I dunno. I don't own one.

I gotta stare over this guys shoulder to make sure he doesn't do anything stupid. This is why I wish he had his own phone!

Alright, sent him a message saying it was me.

"Codeword: teejhees"?

I just make up a random word, yell it at the back of the building, then he throws me whatever he has.

Thats fair.

Anyways, why have you actually been talking to Evan still? I mean I know it's not my life. But most times I think someones weird, they end up being weird.

He's perfectly normal, you just dont know him.

Why do you always try to assume how people are anyways?

Dont'cha do the same.

...

Just quit trying to dig into it, he's fine!

Just fine? C'mon. This guys friends with James, who's famous for being weird, and he only has online friends?

He just moved in!

Three months or so ago? The only person I'm pretty sure he talks to is you.

Then thats good.

...

Whatever. This is your issue, I can't care what happens if you don't want me to.

I'm going home.

Tch, go make out with him or whatever.

Shut up!

You aren't gonna deny that?

...

I see.

Luckily it's a weekday so my parents are still at work. I'm just gonna spend the rest of the night playing games I guess.

I'll probably go back out to town before 5 so I don't have to deal with my dad though.

Oh yeah. I never checked my messages.

I shouldn't be surprised theres so much at this point. Guess I'll read from the bottom up.

HI ok so i found out ur actually on vacation so ill stop bugging u since i know theres gonna be alot to read whenever you get back but i also do wanna talk a little i LOVE the beach. i go there pretty often even tho its rlly far away from me just cuz my familys a bit, rich? we live in a really poor small town btu we have good jobs so we get alot of money and barely pay anything! im kind of confused why we havent moved becuz of that but i guess because our grandparents live here my mom doesnt want to leave them which is totally understandabl some of them are kind of annoying but i still cant mind too much anyways cuz what are they gonna do u know?? ohh booo hoo i kiss girls LOL so what. whats wrong grandma u think im gonna steal ur friend??? anyways i hope u have fun!! try to meet some new people cuz i like to do that at the beach, alot of other alt people go to the beach just to hang out and thats how i met my group of friends too!! make sure u look good tho. dont just be a basic boy with no swagger. try to present more ambigious like uve said u wanted too!

Not sure what I was supposed to do with the tips after I left and couldn't read them, but she's trying atleast.

hello???

r u ok

Now I feel like a dick. I didn't talk to her at all before we had to leave shortly after I last talked. Was really busy and tired the whole weekend. after that Friday.

i made my friends play roblox with me and it was rlly fun, although we kind of got bored after a bit of top model and other random stuff it was still pretty cool!!.... buuut.... we still like minecraft with mods LOL. do u wannajoin me on the server soon btw? ill have to ask for them to host the server again tho, i should probably ask for the worldfile since im more active, unless u think i should just start a new server with me and my friends!! feel free to invite whoever u want btw. and let me know what mods u like. i dont rlly have any specifics i like or dislike, but the animal ones are the coolest. i rlly love the fox mod.

I do kinda feel like playing some on a server, but not tonight. I'm already tired. I can ask her to set that up later, since I didn't have much on Evan's server anyways.

helloooo i guess ur busy?? :( well ill leave u alone some lately. but do know im perfectly fine talking to u!! if im annoying just say so, if ur sad cause of something i can listen, being kind to people is what helps the world be a better place, i dont want someone as cool as u to be so sad!!

Mannn....

Well, the rest is just, kind of boring. I don't think this is too important to re-

That message before my dad called me.

oh ok thats fine!! whos evan??? is it some guy u met??

Doesn't she know who Evan is?

Well, I guess he could be using an online name.

Why wouldn't he tell her his real name though? I tell everyone I'm friends with my name.

No. This is stupid. I'm sure she just forgot his name.

I should check though.

HELLO im so sorry ive been gone for the whole week on vacation and i couldnt respond after friday cause i was busy all weekend,i read all of ur messages and no im not sad or anything well i guess those dont apply anymore since you know what happened but eitherwayy.yeah i talked to some alt girls on the beach but she was with her friend group, so i left them alone but she did compliment my hair which was nice!! they honestly reminded me of u alot just more rude i guess? thats pretty cool u made ur friends play roblox if you want i can friend them, and yeah im down for the minecraft server but give me a bit cuz imma be busy all day im sure... gonna head to town after this so sorry if i dont respond til tommorow. one thing i need to ask tho wdym u dont know evan? hes the guy who owns the server, did u just forget? sorry if im a little curious cuz u umm were datingg lLOL dont tel anyone pls

I feel like a dork for typing that.

I guess I could go back to town early, maybe apologize to Lance and maybe get something to eat so I can skip dinner.

Lol is this u Damian?Don't got much in supply rn. But you're free to swing by for maybe a can or two.

That works too.

I'm pretty sure knocking is gonna end up with me being shot.

Whatever.

Hello?

Guess nobodys home anymore.

What's your problem?

Well.

Uh, sorry about earlier, didn't think Lance would pop his head out the window.

...

Thanks for apologizing I guess.. Why do you know Lance?

Oh, I met him at school a while ago and helped him since he dropped some stuff.

Alright. Don't be picking on him.

Now get going before my parents come home. I already need to clean this.

Okay.

I could help him. I don't really wanna though.

I'm just gonna head to the convenience store.

Not the best food, but atleast it let's me not have to deal with my parents.

Oh yeah, James works here, I'm just gonna walk out of the store, he won't notice, if he does he wont care.

Hey you want some free stuff from the back?

Huh? Uh... No thanks.

Alright maann... More pizza for me.

Well, maybe later. I just want a snack right now.

Do you still work here late at night?

Yup! I basically just got in for night shift, nobody ever comes around so I just get to hang out and get money.

Nice, I need to get a job cause I like money, but I'm 14 so nobody will allow it!

You could just say the owners your grandparent, or not even do that and just get paid in cash.

Huh?

Yeah. When I turned 15 I just asked the guy to pay me with cash so feds couldn't track me. Was cheaper for me to work than someone older so it was a win win really.

That's not a bad idea. You'd think they would hire me here?

Nobody even comes in to get anything for hours at a time. I doubt it.

You could try the park though, as a waiter or something.

Eh maybe. Well I do gotta go, I'll probably swing by around 11 or 12.

If you need a ride I can pick you up.

FUCK NO!

I'm good.

I can't get over how weird he looks.

My dad looks younger, and he's around... 44?

Hold on, he never asked about Damian.

Well, maybe he just assumed Damian told me.

No wait.

He probably just forgot.

Ah who cares...

I gotta be home in 3 hours to get ready for bed, so I guess I could spend the rest... Uhhhhh...

Man I don't know what to do!

...

I'm bored. Fuck it. I'm going to the library of all places.

Honestly, I've only ever came in here once or twice, It's a bit weird and old. There's never anything that interesting ever since I grew out of kids books.

If I were to read anything, It'd have to be something cool, but not cheesy or stupid. Warrior Cats is kinda cool, but I dunno whats going on half the time, I always would just read those without a thought in my head so I can't care to try to pay attention to them anymore.

It sucks this library is old they don't even have a computer lab! I can always just sit on my phone, but that's a bit boring...

I'm too old for horror, history is boring, nonfictions boring, I hate romance, I don't have time for mystery... I'll just grab some random fiction book that looks cool I guess? I have about two hours to burn, so maybe something a bit larger.

...

"House of Leaves" looks pretty cool, I doubt I'll get far enough but if it passes the time who cares.

The fuck?

I don't understand a single thing in this!

Whatever, It took my time. That's all I care about.

I'm heading back to the convenience store, I want some food...

James! Do you have that pizza still?

...

James?

I hate pranks like these.

I'm not playing into your joke, I'm just gonna head to the back and grab some food.

ALL OF IT'S GONE!!!!!

Are you serious?!

Fine! If you can hear me, I'm taking food from the store itself!

...

He's probably gone isn't he.

Yeah, he is. There's a note where the food was.

"Hi buddy, had to go help dad with some work, can u stay here til then? you can grab whatever you want from the store, just dont make a mess please"

This is so stupid!

I need to be home in an hour, and he wants me to stay here? How long has he been gone? It better not be much longer.

Fine. I'll take over the job.

I never realized just how weird this place is, atleast at night.

There's a constant buzzing with the lights, they're way too yellow from what I can guess is smokers. The floors dirty, the foods probably expired.

Is this how I want to live for the rest of my life? I don't even want to do this now.

Hi.

JESUS CHRIST!

Sorry, I can take over now.

Yeah, that'd be nice.

I gotta ask though, do you have a girlfriend?

Used to, she was real nice, but I was a bit lazy, I never really got out for a better job or anything so she got fed up and left.

So why didn't you try to do better after?

Why would I?

Sure, I live a bit, trashy I guess to put it. But I'm still happy even if it's childish.

I barely pay rent since it's my parent's basement. I get to spend my money on games or stuff, and I have some online friends too.

Plus everyone I know in real life is pretty asshole-y which is typical for this town you know!

So then, why do you do weird stuff sometimes?

Like what? Am I being weird now?

No I mean. Ms. Lacy.

The test answers? I just stole it from her house.

What?

Yeah? How did you think I got it?

...

Nothing.

Well, you seemed like you had somewhere to go. I won't hold you here!

Thanks, I do need to get home.

Want me to drive you over there?

I'm good, if they see someone drop me off they might be a bit mad.

Oh thats fair, my parents were always all angry about everything all the time. I was really glad they eventually got off my ass you know!

Was it because they gave up on you?

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Probably, but I don't mind that.

Er. Sorry. I should get going.

No hard feelings.

Why the hell did I say that.

I don't get him. Why would you want to underpreform on purpose?

Why would he just spend his whole life locked to a basement?

Why would he want to live?

People are strange. Everyone is in some way it seems, I guess I can't change that.

My dads too focused with work to ever be normal, My moms too dedicated to be kind, Lance is socially inept, Damian is an asshole, James is lazy, Isaacs too basic, Marina talks too much, I'm too judgemental.

What about Evan?

Why is he missing a flaw?

I guess a bit pushy with love, but thats not a trait.

I don't know.

It's such a small thing to realize, but why does it bother me so much?

I suppose I shouldn't worry about this in the end.

I think it's just best to forget what bothers me, and stay focused on the positives.